AT Reading March, 2005

my missing cat reading...

This is really a story I'd like to share because it really was a great tarot experience, but any thoughts about what I thought would be welcomed. Hope it's not too long...This reading was done after my cat, my friend of about 13 years, went missing.

Tigger was an indoor/outdoor cat and this one time he just never came back. Well, I was devastated and I missed him terribly. Anyway, after hanging flyers and canvassing the neighborhoods, after a while, I had sort of come to terms with the fact that he might not be coming back at all, but still hoping he would. A couple of months later I finally brought myself to ask if Tigger was dead. While I was shuffling, The Chariot fell out of the pack, I considered it but “achieving victory” just didn’t seem to fit with my question. So I stuck it back in thinking I was clumsy, continued shuffling and pulled three cards.

The first was The Empress, the second was Death and the third was Strength. Well, I’m still a novice here but as I looked at those three cards together I just lost it and I felt in my heart that he was gone. I understood The Empress to mean that I was the mother who was worried about the animal that I loved, nurtured, and had a special connection with, for the animal that was allowed to enjoy nature and to hunt and be connected to the Earth.

Death in this case, I understood to mean that he had passed on, made a transition to some place else. The answer to my question was yes, and he would not be coming back. I understood Strength to mean that I would endure this hard time and that I could be strong and accept the truth. And maybe that I needed to forgive myself also (I was having guilt issues because I let him out whenever he wanted) Well, I still needed to know what had happened to him. So I shuffled, I asked “but what happened? How did he die?”… and The Chariot fell out of the deck again. Well, after staring at it like what does this mean?? It dawned on me then that maybe a car had hit him? As sad as that was to think, it was such a great comfort to have an answer.